The night where she roamed alone

I no longer want her
To be alone
to dine alone
to shop alone
for as long as she has me
She shall be

the most carefree
the most laden with love
the happiest being
in the whole universe
above the angels
high above the clouds
where the air is rarified

we shall walk onto the passage of time
while lingering in sweet notions of having just met

the year was 2009
she came
i saw
i pursued
she kept me away

and she fell into a cesspool of
insecurity
losertique notions of being with
someone who don't deserve her
yet scarred her
harmed her.....
took advantage of her
and ravaged her soul
causing her to linger
in a state of emotional limbo
so much as to affect her general well being

If ONLY
IF ONLY I HAD MADE IT CLEAR
back 2 years ago
she don't have to be hurt
and i wouldn't need to hurt another

why am i such a stupid clown
to mess it up at the most inappropriate timing
and cause a tidal wave of damage thereafter

God forgive me